Do you know how good my God is?

He's really, really good, in case you were wondering. He's just been ministering to me in such amazing ways lately, and I'm being blown away constantly by how He's pulling me up out of this pit I've been in for so long.

I waited and waited and waited for God. At last he looked; finally he listened. He lifted me out of the ditch, pulled me from deep mud. He stood me up on a solid rock to make sure I wouldn't slip. He taught me how to sing the latest God-song, a praise-song to our God. More and more people are seeing this: they enter the mystery, abandoning themselves to God. (Psalm 40:1-3, The Message)

I know it's not over, but I know the end is coming, because I can feel this tremendous relief that something has been lifted off of me. I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm not going to wake up every morning and immediately put on that awful burden, but I'm going to hand it over to Him. His yoke really is easy, and if I trust Him to take care of my day, He will. And I love that He's constantly adding on to my story. I love that my testimony from several years ago isn't the same testimony I would tell today. I love that He never quits working on me, and that He's never quite finished blowing my mind. I used to think that testimonies were only about how we came to know God - about that point in our lives when we first realized who He is and that we needed Him. I thought they were all about our Road to Damascus experiences.....but now I know they're so much more progressive and ongoing than that. He doesn't capture our hearts and then leave us alone. He's not like those people we hear about who pursue someone for so long and once they have their love and the thrill of the chase is over, they move on. No! God says, "I have you, and this is where the adventure really begins." My latest God-song, like the scripture says, is something completely different than what it used to be, and I know that once this chapter is over, He'll start on the next one. He's never done, and He delights in taking me from one step to another. I resist Him and, at times, beg Him to just take me home so I won't have to deal with any of this anymore, but He has a great plan for me, and He knows that I have something wonderful coming - something to delight my heart again. He loves to see that. He loves to see me like this, and He loves to see my eyes sparkle and glisten with tears as I realize again who He is. And you know what else? In my Beth Moore study yesterday, I learned how personal God is. He created all of the mountains and hills and trees and meadows, but we're the ones who capture His heart. He's the God over all of that, but He chooes to be MINE! How great is that? I'm nothing in my own eyes....and yet............what does He see? So much more. He's so good.