I need thee every hour......

I need some accountability. I know it's hard for my regular blog readers to do so since we don't get to talk often and see each other even less frequently than that (poo!), but I need some help from y'all. I need you to help me get back on track. I'm sitting here listening to hymns on my computer, songs I've put on there from my worship cds and that I've bought because they spoke to me, and it's literally like I've been dying of thirst and someone is dripping icy cold water on my mouth and lips....giving me that taste I haven't had in so long and reminding me why I need it so badly... It's moistening my parched heart and spirit and making me want to sing and pray and cry all at the same time. While I know I need it and am constantly being reminded that I need to spend time with my Lord and to sit at His feet and know that He is God over all of my circumstances, I still never do. I just don't. No good excuses and no silly rationalization, but I just don't do what I need to do, and I need someone to hold me to it. I could ask Scott, and I have, but somehow girls are better at that than guys are, in my experience, and I need simply for someone to say to me periodically, "Are you spending time with Jesus?" That's all I need. The words "turn your eyes upon Jesus" are playing right now, and I know the truth behind them....that if I look into the full radiance of His face I'll see just how dim the things of the world are that have been occupying my thoughts and my time and my energy. I need Him, every hour, but it seems like unless I have someone to point me in that direction, I'm not going to do it. Why were we created with that stubborn vein in us that refuses to take care of ourselves the way we know we should?