Today I had to take my two month-old daughter to the doctor. I had to hold her hands and arms while the nurse gave her three shots in her little legs. I had to look her in the eye as she felt her first experiences of pain, and know that I had caused it.
I know it is very necessary, and that the temporary pain and her sluggishness this afternoon is infinitely better than if she should get sick with one of the diseases those shots protect her against, but it is very, very hard for this mama to remember that when her little baby is in such distress. And it is very, very hard right this minute to know that we'll do it again in just a couple of months.
I can't help but wonder if this is how God feels when we, as His children, have to go through the struggles that make us stronger and better people. He knows it's best for us, in the long run, but we, in our limited vision, can't see that. I wonder if this is what it's like.
Monday, March 09, 2009
Necessary
Labels: Leah, motherhood
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No doubt. It really does change your view of God when you're a parent and it only gets worse the older your kids are! I find myself getting frustrated with my kids when they continue to do something I've been on them about then I wonder how God feels when He keeps on me about something that I fail to do, though I really try to make it a point to comply right away, but there are a few things He has to talk to me more than once about. It's eye opening.
On the shot thing, I was a wimp and had to leave the room when mine got their baby shots. I couldn't take it. Isn't that awful?
It seems we get new insights we never thought of as we take on the roll of parenthood. Already I've discovered parallells and I haven't even met or really felt my baby yet... And despite its anonymity, I love it fiercely and so God has endowed me with just a little bit of his understanding :-)
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